Me, Sarah McClachlan and a MRI

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I especially appreciated that there tomato award after coming home from having a MRI of my shoulder and elbow Sunday morning. I didn't mind the machine at all, actually was relaxing after not much sleep (2 vicodan did nothing for the pain last night).
The first one for my shoulder was done laying on my back and was easy but the lying on my stomach with my arm stretched out over my head, with handfacing up (for the elbow), well that was a bit uncomfortable. I came out in tears, much to the surprise of the technician who said," you did so well, you should've told me I would've paused it." I told her, that's ok, I'm a big cry baby, not much pain tolerance at all. It still amazes me that I delivered a baby, tho i can distinctly remember saying over and over, "I can't do this", "I want to go home".
Now I wait til Tues. when the report goes to my new primary care doctor; but I really have to wait til next Mon. when I go to the new Orthopedic surgeon. I guess i've figured out either way I don't win. If they find something that wasn't on the xrays that they can repair - that means ....dahdahdahda... surgery. and if they don't find anything that means I need to retire( no more patients, no more tending bar at weddings, no more gardening and definitely no more cleaning) and do nothing (take up watching tv 12 hrs. a day or more likely blogging or maybe even reading if i have that much time) cause absolutely everything hurts it, even doing nothing.

6 comments:

Alexandra said...

Dear me, that sucks big time...yeah, sounds like it's a no-win situation. Sorry to hear that and I can only hope things turn out for the best.

Jona said...

So sorry to hear you're in pain. Whatever they find/don't find, I hope they can come up with a way to allivate your agony.

Take care of yourself.

Dave said...

I wish you comfort and hope that your pain subsides soon. I too am a person with a low tolerance for pain and I join you in your quest for it to stop.
Good Luck

Mary said...

Oh my. I'm sorry to learnthings are so difficult. And I know too that when those tears come there's nothing you can do about it ....

Wishing you freedom from the pain by whatever means.
xoxo

Pam said...

No gardening? That simply can't be. If it's surgery, you can do it. I'm a wimp too, and haven't had children - I'm in awe of women who do that! Hang in there.

Patry Francis said...

sorry, sister. hope you're feeling a bit better today.