Driven vs. Overwhelmed

(Funny i was just thinking/feeling this way today and i wrote this a year ago, i guess this is a regular state for me you could say.)

It seems I fluctuate between these 2 states, tho lately i've been pretty much just in the overwhelmed camp.
why is it that sometimes i'm gangbusters, can get everything done, go,go,go; multitasking maniac who on the downside of getting things done can't relax for beans. And then at other times everywhere i look i see work and i just practice avoidance-doing anything but addressing the task at hand. Instead of prioritizing i just flit from thing to thing - like as long as i keep moving it means i'm gettting something done, doesn't it? ok, just humor me please,cause it sure doesn't look like i did a damn think today, but i swear I never sat down.

(seems i've touch on this before, is it seasonally?)

Joke Friday

Subject: 59 and Pregnant

A woman went to the doctor's office, where she was seen by a young, new doctor. After about 4 minutes in the examination room, the doctor told her she was pregnant. She burst out, screaming as she ran down the hall. An older doctor stopped her and asked what the problem was, and she told him her story. After listening, he had her sit down and relax in another room. The doctor marched down the hallway to the back where the first doctor was and demanded, "What's the matter with you? Mrs. Terry is 59 years old, she has four grown children and seven grandchildren, and you told her she was pregnant?" The new doctor continued to write on his clipboard and without looking up said,

"Does she still have the hiccups?"


This post was written on May 25, 2006- almost exactly a yr. ago and even tho i've been sleeping better lately, with the help of a mother's little helper, faced with the choice of delete or post, I thought i'd post it anyway.

Recent thoughts on insomnia and bloggers
It seems to me that a fair share of the bloggers that i like and frequent have one of the same problems as me - Insomnia. It got me to thinking: what causes it, are there predispostions to it? Some of my reasons for it are"
Worry - some unresolved problem/conflict always ready and waiting to jump in at a moments notice.
We just plain Think too much - so as soon as a glimmer of consciousness appears our thought processes jump into gear. I sometimes find myself thinking as i get up to go to the bathroom or tend the aging/wailing cat who wants food or me in the middle of the nite - i find myself thinking - just go to the bathroom and get right back to sleep. tyring to will my mind back into unconsciousness.
The creative juices decide to flow in the middle of the night/never in the middle of a blank page; such as an idea for a blog post.
Procratination( perhaps a distant cousin to insomnia?) That list starts playing - all those things you didn't check off on your to do list.

What's your take on this??

Full Moon

R. Laban

( No time to post, but since i like this picture so much I decided to post this unedited rant from 2 wks ago)

Working title: Sleeplessnes take one hundred and fifty-two.......

Tonite,it was the damn, annoying, cough. But when I tried to ignore it, i started hacking from the dry feeling and reached for the water, then for the cough drops(which i live on. Tonite i got panicky in the car ,with the family, on the way to the restaurant because when i reached in my purse to see if i had any at first I didn't think i did, then i realized i did, big sigh of relief as I chewed my Tums that I did remember to grab on the way out the door.) But now no cough drop on the nite stand! Then I notice, as i head for the bathroom because now that i'm awake i'm aware that i need to, that I'm kinda sweaty(nothing out of the ordinary for me(I'm not mentioning that dirty word tho), ok where was I ( now i'm even lost in this run-on record breaker).
Ok so back to bed i go, realizing full well that I'm wide awake and already thinking about writing this as well as other draft material. But I'm choosing to ignore the pull of this dang internets(as our illustrious(idiot) presi(nope not gonna go there). Am I breaking any Guiness records for rambling yet?(I'm sure when i reread this it will remind me of one of my college papers on speed - and those were in long hand! you didn't pull out the typewriter till the final draft - maybe that was a good thing). Am I overdosing on cough syrup yet? Nope, because then i would be asleep. (*Note to self - don't be so cheap, go to walmart and buy that exspensive Delsum cough syrup instead of comparing the labels/ingredients and price and buying the store brand or better yet go to the walk in urgent care clinic($20 co-pay to go tell the doc what i need since i've already researced it on Web MD - hey can he be my primary - he's always availabe, unlike when i call and I'm offered an appt. 2 months from now. maybe i can get a script for the good cough medicine and some nasal spray for the damn post nasal drip that is causing it!

ok back to our regularly scheculed program of me bitchin and moanin. So i get up and go downstair to refill the water and turn off a light in the kitchen and put the kitchen nite lite on
When turning off the lights in the kitchen I noticed it was still pretty bright, so when i passed thru the dining room i went over to the window to find the moon and yup (full).
Ok I thought there was a point to this story but i see it's like my college paper on drugs, not worth editing, just start over in the morning.

Joke Friday

Some tips for Retirement planning from an expert in the

If you had purchased $1000.00 of Nortel stock three years ago,it would now be worth $49.00.

With Enron, you would have had $16.50 left of the original

WorldCom, you would have less than $5.00 left.

But if over the last three years you had purchased $1000.00
worth of beer, drank all the beer, then returned the cans or
bottles for your refund you would have $614.00.

So based on the above, the best current investment advice is to drink beer and recycle.


Tag you're it

I was tagged by Matt,over at Faith & Family, to list eight random things about myself. Before I actually complete my list, I'm required to list the following rules:

I have to post these rules before I give you the facts.
Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
I like the categories of random things that Matt picked for his list, so I think I'll just stick with those.

Food: A bagel for breakfast, pizza for lunch and pasta for dinner and a salad(preferably Greek or with some cheese in it.)

Family: Married for 15 years! with a wonderful son!! and Jackson(3yr.old black lab).

Exercise: Yardwork,housework and walking the dog.

Profession: Ophthalmic technician for 20 yrs!! and bartender previous to & during that for an equal amount of time. remember they overlapped, but i did start working at 14 (camp counselor).

Obsession: hmm ... Renovating my house. Basically rebuilt it while living in it the past 6 yrs. roof, windows and siding, side steps/entry, front steps/stone wall, kitchen/dining room, both bathrooms, sunroom/family room and new mantel and crown molding for the living room, oh, and paint of course. Now I want to refinish the basement and replace the bulkhead with a walkout structure and new deck, finish landscaping front and back and we also need a new heating system( might as well do AC too, right? what bank can i rob?

Faith: Jewish by birth and raising my son in that faith but secretly Zen buddhistish.

Ailments: Just recovered from 3 yrs. of tendonitis(elbow) and bursitis(shoulder). knocking wood. Currently suffering from ? GERD - seeing a gastroenteroligist tmrrw. i'm sure i'll be posting on that. And just getting over the longest cold (upper respitory infection) on record or i have allergies.

Games: Pool,Bid whist, Scrabble, backgammon.

Oh and the rulebreaker isn't tagging 8 people as is stated in the rules but just asking any & all takers to leave a link in comments if you decide to join in.

Mother's Day

Minus: Food shopping
card shopping
last minute flower shopping
no card or call from stepdaughter
yet another school project - when is school out?
words with son/don't use that tone of voice on me

Plus: Went out for breakfast - didn't have to cook or clean up
Didn't break a sweat - didn't do too much
Walked the dog
Didn't have to cook dinner/yummy key lime pie for dessert
nice card & present from son
kiss goodnite from son

Joke Friday

(not my sentiments but very funny)

Sleeping Beauty, Tom Thumb, and Quasimodo were all talking one day.

Sleeping Beauty said, "I believe myself to be the most beautiful girl
in the world."

Tom Thumb said, "I must be the smallest person in the world."

Quasimodo said, "I absolutely have to be the most disgusting person in the world."

So they all decided to go to the Guinness Book of World Records to
have their claims verified.

Sleeping Beauty went in first and came out looking deliriously happy.
"It's official, I AM the most beautiful girl in the world."

Tom Thumb went next and emerged triumphant, "I am now officially the
smallest person in the world."

Sometime later, Quasimodo comes out looking utterly confused and
says."Who the hell is Rosie O'Donnell ?

Joke Friday

Joke of the Day - A.A.A.D.D. - Age Activated Attention Deficit Disorder.
This is how is manifests itself:

I decide to wash my car. As I start toward to the garage, I notice
that there is mail on the hall table. I decide to go through the
mail before I wash the car.

I lay my car keys down on the table, put the junk mail in the trash
can under the table, and notice that the trash can is full.

So, I decide to put the bills back on the table and take out the
trash first, but then I think that since I’m going to be near the
mailbox when I take out the trash anyway, I may as well pay the bills first.

I take my checkbook off the table and see that there is only one check
left. My extra checks are in my desk in the study, o I go to my
desk where I find the can of Coke that I had been drinking. I’m going
to look for my checks, but first I need to push the Coke aside so that I
don’t accidentally knock it over.

I see that the Coke is getting warm, and I decide I should put it in the
refrigerator to keep it cold.

As I head toward the kitchen with the Coke, a vase of flowers on the
counter catches my eye–they need to be watered.

I set the Coke down on the counter and I discover my reading
glasses that I’ve been searching for all morning.

I decide I’d better put them back on my desk, but first I’m going to
water the flowers.

I set the glasses back down on the counter, fill a container with water,
and suddenly I spot the TV remote. Someone left it on the kitchen table.

I realize that tonight, when we go to watch TV, we will be looking for
the remote, but nobody will remember that it’s on the kitchen table, so
I decide to put it back in the den where it belongs, but first I’ll
water the flowers.

I splash some water on the flowers, but most of it spills on the floor.
So, I set the remote back down on the table, get some towels and wipe up
the spill.

Then I head down the hall trying to remember what I was planning to do.

At the end of the day; the car isn’t washed, the bills aren’t paid,
there is a warm can of Coke sitting on the counter, the flowers aren’t
watered, there is still only one check in my checkbook,

I can’t find the remote, I can’t find my glasses, and I don’t remember
what I did with the car keys.

Then, when I try to figure out why nothing got done today, I’m really
baffled because I know I was busy all day long and I’m really tired. I
realize this is a serious problem, and I’ll try to get some help for it,
but first I’ll check my e-mail.

We didn't start the fire...

This is really good, check it out.